hope within the darkness

It’s been a pretty dark season of life for me & my husband. A very difficult & confusing summer, full of a lot of heartache, confusion & sadness. It’s been a long season of trials & hurt; questioning of the Lords plan & his love for his people. As I think of these past few years of my life, I’ve wonder where God is. I’ve questioned him more times than I can count & I’ve asked him several times when will the path will become more clear? When will the darkness fade? When will restoration take place? Jesus when will you make all things new??

These past few weeks of time in prayer & solitude; he’s taken me back to the moment when I gave my heart to him. I’m reminded of laying everything at the alter. I’m reminded of the image that he gave me that night of me grabbing his hand & walking into the wilderness on the path he has for me. I was going through photos a few weeks ago to bring joy into a rough day.. and as I came across this photo of my husband & I, I was reminded of that image he gave years ago. I see Jesus grabbing our hands, leading us on his path for our lives, one we cannot see nor make on our own. Sometimes in a season of clarity & joy things come our way, and we may feel prepared. And then something happens, and then another… and another. And it becomes dark and scary, and we may not see the light… but we keep faithfully walking, because even though the horrible & bad things aren’t from him, he continues to guide and lead us & reveal himself amidst the mess. His presence & peace, his simplicity, genuineness and love that filled me the night I gave my life to him still fills me in the darkness. And this image beautifully reflects life with him. Because “it is God who arms me with strength, and keeps my way secure.” 2 Samuel 22:33

May this encourage you & enlighten you to be real with your circumstances and to walk through the dark seasons of our lives with the Lord leading you. May you be reminded that though you cannot see the plan; he goes before you & with you, so fill yourself up with his presence & love in whatever season you are in.