Obedient to God’s Voice

I recently had a conversation with someone about a place that the Lord has heavily placed on my heart this summer. When coming to college, I didn’t know the Lord; but my passion for helping kids in any situation has always been important to me, so this place was one I thought about often. I struggled for a long time wondering what I could d

o about it. Do I work there? Do I volunteer? How do I do that? What if it’s totally not what I expect? The questions kept running throughout my beginning years of college and I never did anything about it.

Fast forward to this summer; I interviewed, was offered the position and froze. I had absolutely no idea what to do. My mind said yes just accept it! The Lord said no, talk to me. As I prayed just begging what to do the Holy Spirit so loudly told me I was not meant to work there. Confused and shooken up; a position at the hospital fell in my lap shortly after. Things began to move so quickly and I had no reason not to take that job.

Summer has flown by and as my hours at work have increased I have began to decrease. I have seen myself begin to struggle again with anxiety and stress, irritability and frustration. Despite these things arising; my heart for the kids and that place arose. I continued to pray and desperately seek the Lord about it. While having one of the roughest days at work yet; I overheard the word “volunteer”, and that’s when I knew exactly what I was going to do.

As the conversation continued; he wished me luck and said “wow Amelia, are you sure you can handle that? I responded promptly and said “someone has to go. I absolutely can’t sit right with myself driving by every day and knowing I could be doing something about it. (Praise the Lord for this response because I was beyond nervous). I reflected back to this conversation a few days after and it broke me. I felt doubted, I felt hurt and it made me beyond sad for the kids.

Why? Because what if I would listen to his doubt? I would be falling into the fear of failure and disobeying where the Lord is calling me.

God has a specific calling for you. Often times it may seem like things impossible and way out of what you can do. But God will provide everything you need to fulfill that calling. My morning devotional this morning was exactly about God’s callings upon your life. It listed people like Noah in the ark, Joseph in Egypt, Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego in the fire and David and Goliath not having the power to accomplish what they did; but the Lord provided. Similar to you and I, we do not have the power to do it ourselves. We don’t have the power to do anything without God. Lean and press into him through everything and he will provide. Your savior is your strength.

My prayer for you is that this inspires you to reflect back to a moment you had with the Lord when he whispers something for you to go do. If you didn’t act upon it due to fear or doubt; find a quiet spot to pray about it. Continue praying and give yourself some grace! If you did act upon it; reflect back and see how the Lord used you and provided for you.